These Websites Make My Bad Mood Goes

School's been driving me crazy. Not because of the subjects, assignments, teachers, and so on (even though those things do add my stress level), but it's because of the government had changed the system of the way to apply to university. They changed it a couple months ago actually, but now I'm freaking out because many teachers (in school and even in my course) are talking about it.

To make me feel better, I want to make something. So, when I got home this Friday (which means the last day of school this week, yaay!), I looked for great websites providing some recipes, DIY things, art stuffs, and so on. I found so many of it, but these two are my favorite.

1. Ming Makes Cupcakes

I really love this website. Ming gives us good pictures and simple how-to(s) that even people who were actually not interested on baking at the first place, would want to do it after seeing this website. There are 33 cupcake recipes and they all look so yummy. This website also provides 6 cookie recipes and 3 savoury recipes. And I'm pretty sure these numbers will keep on growing as soon as Ming finds another recipes.

2. Papercrave

Paper cravings. Yes I always love this thing. And one thing I really love about this website is because of its gift wrap ideas. These are the samples :

Father's Day Shirt & Bow Tie and Grocery Bag Gorgeous

So what do guys think? Do you have any favorite websites for recipes, DIY things or art stuffs? Tell me about it! :)

P.S : I just found this online store named Yozo Craft and I really love it, especially its charms. And the best of all is, the charms are cheap and free shipping!! For example, this cute and unique set of Lovely Little Scissors only costs US$1.60

Uuh if only I have a credit card, I'm pretty sure I would buy so many things there. You all have to check it out!

Blessings

There is a memory in my heart today

That passing years cannot take away

An empty space no one can fill

I love you still and always will

The tears in my eyes, I can wipe away

But the ache in my heart still always stay

- Achmad Bakrie -

I was supposed to bring a biography book of a famous Indonesian person last Wednesday. But then I forgot to bring one. Silly me. Thank God there are some biography books in my school's library so I borrowed one. The book that I borrowed is about Achmad Bakrie. I haven't heard about him before. Turns out, he is the father of that famous Afrizal Bakrie. What surprised me is the fact that Achmad Bakrie loved to write some poems, and I think his poems are beautiful.

So anyway, this week has been one gloomy-no spirit-feels like crying week. But even in the most difficult times of your life, you can still find some good things. Here are some positive things from my week so far :
1. I've been trying to forgive myself better than before. I think you wont be able to live happily if you still think about yourself as a girl-who-has-too-many-faults.
2. It shows me that us, students in 8 shs, are a real family. We support each other, we console each other, we try to make each other smile, because we are one. Together, better, stronger!
3. I have the best of best friends anyone can ever ask for. On Tuesday, since it was a holiday, I went to PIM with two of them, which are Nadea and Nisa. We talked and they made me feel better and happier. After that, Nadea and I went to watch No Strings Attached and Nisa watched another movie with her bf. Wanna know my opinion about the movie? Here it is : Ashton Kutcher is so handsome and hot and cute and Natalie Portman makes me jealous. Hahaha
4. I've been trying to ignore some negative thoughts that people said. I think my life is complicated enough to even care about those things. I want to bring some positive energy to everyone.
5. I feel blessed because I am still alive and surrounded by so many lovely people. Including my blog friends :)

What If I Am the Next?

One of my junior just passed away today. When I first heard this, I felt empty. I couldn't feel anything. But then I came back to reality and I was scared. I cried. Even though I dont know him in person, but I do know his face. We met often. Especially these last couple of days. He seemed really fit and healthy. But then suddenly, this day, he got a heart attack. This makes me think, the next time it happens, it might be me.

We all think and hope that we all will have a normal life. Like this

But what if our life turns to be not as normal as that? What if it will stop at the word 'school'? What if we will never know what it feels like to work? What it feels like to earn some money for doing your passion? What if you'll never get married and have a happy family? What if all of the things you do, studying hard so that one day you'll become a very successful person, is useless because your life will end just before you can make your dream comes true?

All my life, or at least these last couple of years, I've been thinking too hard about my future. I've always been so scared that maybe, I wont be able to become a successful and sophisticated woman. I've been wondering, what if my future wont be so bright? Now, I realized. I've been wondering too many questions, but never the most important thing : what if, I will never have a future? Literally, dont have a future.

So this is what I think I should learn from this. Live your life for the present. Live it to the fullest. Have fun! Don't let the smallest problem in this world becomes the one that depresses you the most. Life is too precious to waste on those things. Do not ever forget every little sweet things a person do for you. Maybe one day you won't be able to see that person again and you'll give everything just to get back to that moment.

But the most important thing to do is, remember that God does exist and He can call you any time. Do not ever forget to pray and ask Him to give the best for you.

My deepest condolences go out to Arsya Pratama's family, friends, and everyone who'd known him before he died. You have to know that my prayers (and I'm pretty sure many of other people's prayers too) go out to you today. Arsya, even though I never had a chance to know you in person, I just couldn't hold my tears from falling. I'm sorry I can't come to your funeral. Rest in peace!

Never a Good Thing

My little brother is having a crush on a girl from his school whose class is next to his. He started to spend most of his time at home by locking himself inside his room and just chat via msn or facebook with that girl. If he’s chatting with that girl, he won’t leave it, even to eat. He lost 2 kgs. It’s starting to make me worry. I think he likes this girl too much. And I’ve learned that the word ‘too’ – as used in ‘too much’, ‘too risky’, ‘too small’, and so on – is never a good thing. On this post, I’ll talk about the word ‘too much’.

Have you ever thought what it would be like if you have too much money? Faaar too much than what you need. Will you feel save? Will you feel loved? Well for all of you who answered ‘yes’ to that question, you might have to think over. Will you feel save? “Yes!” you said, because you thought whatever happens, you can deal it. Money rules the world, right? And people will surely love you as you can give them whatever they ask if you want to, and all they need to do is be your bestfriend or lover, right? But hey, if I had too much money than the amount I’ve ever needed, I think I’m not gonna feel save. Maybe everytime I see people around me, I’d be scared that they’re actually trying to steal my money. And I’d be scared that people never actually love me for who I am. They just love me because of the things I’m capable of doing. And will I be happy? I don’t think so.

That thing also occurs for love. When you love something – or in this case, someone - too much, you might not care about anything else in this world except that person/thing. You might hurt other people’s feelings just to make that person you love too much feel better. You might let go an opportunity to study abroad and become a succesful accountant, because it means you have to go far far away from the people that you love, and you almost can’t spend just one day without seeing their faces. You might suffer anorexia cause your passion for being a ballerina is too big and has become an obsession.

When you have something and love something too much, it doesn’t guarantee you a good life. Sometimes it just gives you the opposite. What I’m trying to tell is, love everyone around you, be grateful for everything you have, create your dreams and try to reach it, but never love them too much and never let those things control you. Because one day, you’re going to lose them.

*Special thanks to TeSIS 8'12 Group 23 for making me think this way.